Blinds Down
I have noticed of late that the x is starting to post about his travels. I have to quit looking at his sites as it still brings a heat in the pit of my stomach. I need to be looking towards new goals for myself and quit wondering if he ever feels bad about our dissolved marriage. It no longer matters. I will never know if he accepts blame for his wrongdoings or shortcomings in the marriage as I have tried to accept blame for mine. I wouldn't be surprised if he has failed to do that, being the self absorbed person he is. But, life is life and this is where my life is right now. I cannot spend time wondering about him. I do wish him well, maybe with a flat tire now and again or a broken water heater in his RV somewhere when it's cold. That's not evil is it? I do not want harm to come to him, just challenges that make him second guess himself on occasion. Maybe a reflection that says his wife was a loyal, hard working person, and despite her angry times, was actually a loving ...